Kudos my hero...

He always seemed invincible
Her hero standing tall
The person she looked up to most
Now she's watching as he falls.

He's the one she ran to
When everything went wrong
The only one she trusted
He had been there for so long.

The one that made her smile
When she was feeling down
But now he's got her wondering
How much longer he'll be round.

He's the one she needs right now
So much more than he knows
The only one who understand
With him her true self shows.

She wants to help him
She needs him to stay
Who will she turn to
When he goes away?

Tears fill her eyes
Where'd this gone wrong?
Everything is falling apart
Had this been coming all along?

She can't take these thoughts
She numbs them to zero
Her brother's knocking at the door
She loves him, her hero.

So mostly, I wrote this sometime last year...
Maybe October type area.
I think it was originally for a school thing.
Umm, i think it pretty much sums itself up.
My older brother is a maddawg. And it sucks when he's not happy.
We pretty much ace the world when we're being madcore.
At the time there was a lot of talking about him moving out.
And i wasn't really getting along with the rest of my family.
So that scared me a bit.
This weekend has been a bit rough on him,
so i suppose thats what inspired this blog.
My boyfriend and i have just ascertained that
Little sisters care a lot more than they show.

I love you man.

Take care everyone.
xo

I should write a blog...

But i'm far too lazy.



I love this boy very very much.
He makes my world spin round.
:-)

Dirty Attention Seeker...

I'm so needy. And clingy. And gay. I always need someone to want me or need me. I need someone to care. I need someone to want to be with me, to want to know whats going on in my life. And the very second that someone isn't wanting me, i get so upset. Its ridiculous. It needs to stop. I frustrate myself so much. The minute that someone doesn't seem interested in me or chooses to do something else instead of talk to me, i feel so worthless and it really is stupid. I know it is, no need to reiterate that fact.

Ah, i love writing sooky blogs. Its like a public diary. Lmao. Yay.
Sorry for wasting those minutes of your life. I wish i could give them back to you. And you could fill them with more interesting and meaningful memories.
Sorry for being such a whiny bitch.

Take care, xo.

Bigger scars make better stories...

So this weekend was quite a happy one.

It started on Friday afternoon,
I made Jade and Kirsty wait with me after Ancient History till Amy arrived from Art.
Then we ran to her house, no joke, we ran, cause we were well excited about that nights upcoming events. Once there, we had some Mint Slice biscuit dealies... Yanno the ones? Yeah, and they were well delicious. We got changed from our school uniforms into our gig outfits. Haha. Then BAM! Dad drove us to Dominics house.
We did some final adjustments and then Dominic, Amy and I were on our way to 8 Mile Plain bus station. We met Rhys there and together we caught a bus to Marter Hill i think :-) After walking/running a few hundred metres in the wrong direction, we check the map and headed towards Princess Theatre.
Clearly we aced Monsterfest. Got some "bro fist" from one of the guitarists in For Today, and spoke to one of the guitarists in Ekklesia. All the bands were pretty sick, and we sat on the stage pretty much half the night, cause thats how insanely cool we are.

Saturday was just as good, if not better.
The morning was pretty lame, but i arrived at Dominics at about 3.45 after dad decided a visit to Mitre 10 was urgent. Not to worry, i brought lollipops for me and my boy. We spent a while looking at photos with his mother. Dom then attempted to teach me some piano skillz. He did extremely well. He made it so i could almost understand what he meant. Haha, he's quite mind bogglingly good at piano. We watched some Scrubs next, cause clearly if its on the telly, we cant just walk past it. Haha.
Then we played pool! By golly! What fun! Haha, yet another game i suck at. But it was fun all the same :-) I used my hands half the time cause i was having troubles hitting the ball. Haha. Hmm.. What next? The trampoline i think! Jumping wasn't a good idea due to my back injury. So we just layed there snuggling. Dom took my scarf, to keep himself warm, what a gentleman :P
We made a salad to go with dinner, then we ate dinner! Yum! I got a Freddo after dinner cause the Harpers are insanely cool like that.
After dinner, Dominic and i put a hole in his wall. Haha. Unlucky. Then we decided to watch a Paramore dvd. Bad idea, Hayley Williams is the subject of Dominics previous obsession. Can't blame him, cause she is insanely cool. She managed to make me feel insecure and jealous. Haha. How sad. I enjoyed pointing out the spunky guitarist. Haha. Yay for me :-) But seriously Hayley is freakin awesome. As is Paramore, awesome awesome awesome. Then i had to go home.

Today is Sunday, i went to visit my cousin and her baby. Yay! Kristy is pretty funtastic, we assembled an activity center for Isabella, its pretty snazzy. Isabella woke up cause we made too much noise, she's insanely cute. I'd probably like to have me one of those when i'm Kristy's age. I read One Fish Two Fish Red Fish Blue Fish, best book ever, i think so. Haha. I laughed so much. On the drive home i fell asleep. Probably cause i'd stayed up till 1am talking to Dom the night before. When i arrived home, i watched Good Luck Chuck. Its funny, i like it. :-)

This is my boyfriend being a slush bucket at Monsterfest on Friday night. I bought him that shirt. He throwsdown like a spunk. Hehe. I'm bad at getting his face in that photo obviously, I love him all the same though.
This is my bestfriend being a scrag after moshing extremely hxc at Monsterfest on Friday night. She scraggled up my hair before this photo. My slushy boyfriend took this one, thats why both faces are in there. I look mingin' but we had most fun:-)
This is my cousins baby Isabella, that makes me her second cousin. Its a pitty she wasn't smiling when i took this, cause to be completely honest, she has the cutest baby smile i've ever seen. She even cries cute. Definately a slush kid.


Hmm, lyrics that made me wow today:
I made my bed and I sleep like a baby
With no regrets and I dont mind sayin
Its a sad sad story when a mother will teach her
Daughter that she ought to hate a perfect stranger
And how in the world can the words that I said
Send somebody so over the edge
That theyd write me a letter
Sayin that I better shut up and sing
Or my life will be over

Im not ready to make nice
Im not ready to back down
Im still mad as hell and
I dont have time to go round and round and round
Its too late to make it right
I probably wouldnt if I could
Cause Im mad as hell
Cant bring myself to do what it is you think I should

Mother and i tend to sing along to this one :-)

I'd say this post has gone on long enough now.
Take care
xoxo.

What a rainy ending given to a perfect day...

Well, it's been a tiring week so far.
Dad says I'm nearly a fully fledged adult.
Cause I've got all the stress of assignments, and work, and no time, and no money.
Ha ha, lucky me hey. :]

Mmms, i wanna write something really meaningful that'll make you go "wow, that's deep". Or something really interesting that you'll want to keep reading. But i don't know how to. I think i should take a course in journalism. I used to be quite good at story writing in primary school. But kinda fail at english now... Bummer.

I haven't been overly happy these last few nights, and tbh I'm not entirely sure why. I've been thinking a lot about the mistakes I've made, and the ones that i might make in the future. It's not really a splendid topic of thought. I would strongly suggest you push them to the very back corner of your mind and leave them there as long as possible.

"So i start a fight cause i need to feel something, and you do what you want cause I'm not what you wanted..."
I know them ones, kinda reminds me of the line,
"When everything feels like the movies, yeah you bleed just to know you're alive..."
I've known them ones too.

Anyway, heres a snapshot of my baby and i at Demi's sixteenth on the weekend. We quite obviously were not ready for this photo. But it was a pretty epic party. I'm pretty sure that's a real Polaroid picture, not just edited in there... So yeah, epic coolness.

I'd now like to congratulate myself on completing yet another pointless post in my saga of heythererhiannon, and thank my loyal followers for wasting a few minutes of their life reading this, you are never getting those minutes back.

Take care, xo.